Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Schmublishers and Bad Vibe Cooties

I wish I could tell all of you I've been doing great things during this absence. The truth is, I've been trying not to let me emotions drift over to y'all. I have shut out friends, family, and my book nerd family. Why? I will try and keep this as light as possible, but things are about to get a little dark.

After my husband's return home from Afghanistan, the mental and emotional toll his transition took on both of us was not a good time.  This was not our first, second, third, or fourth time apart, but the transition back to "normal" was the worst. I began working 16 hour days and the only thing I did at home was sleep.  This was intentional. For a while I dug myself into a pretty deep depression that I hid from everyone . . . including my husband.  I won't go into detail, but just know that everything is good on the homefront now. I just needed a few mental slaps to the back of the head to wake up. That, and one of my very best friends announcing she was bringing another tiny human into the world. I can't be Emo Auntie Maria. There are books and weird things I have to introduce to the aforementioned tiny human and I can't do that while crying in my depression hidey hole.

Most of you know I work in the mental health field, mainly with our military. Sometimes the job takes its toll on me. Sometimes my patients remind me that I'm doing something good, something worthwhile. Most of them unknowingly sent me a life preserver when I was drowning in eyeball-deep self-pity. Not to mention I have amazing co-workers that remind me there is life outside of work. There is someone who will never read this that made a huge impact on my attitude and my outlook. You are missed every single day, C. I wish you would have known just how valuable your life was to those who knew you even a short time.

Then there's what I like to call "The Book Thing". Yep, the whole ordeal with the schmublisher (thank you T.A. Brock for introducing me to this word) really made me want to Hulk Smash a Buick and cry about it over . What I've decided to do is continue with self-publishing. Yep, that means grammatical errors and all.  I don't have an official release date for Lowlife now. I'm re-editing since the schmublisher put their bad vibe cooties all over it. Who knows? Maybe I'll just publish the entire thing here in segments. Meh. Probably not. Maybe. Regardless, Lowlife is coming soon. I just don't have a date yet.


  1. My dear Maria, I am saddened to hear of the rough time you've been having. I think it's very brave of you to open up to us out here about the struggles you and your family have had. But mostly I am glad that you are doing better. Thanks for being real because you never know who out there might need to hear that they are not alone in this thing we call life. As far as the Schmublisher, don't let it make you bitter, although the feelings of anger I'm sure are strong. I read Bottom Feeder and thought it was a phenomenal book and I am patiently awaiting Lowlife as I'm sure are many others. I loved your book when you self-published and I like the way you write, I don't think you need someone telling you how they think you should write YOUR book. Good luck with re-editing and thanks for keeping us posted. God bless.

  2. It is beyond believe that anyone would try to tell YOU how your book should read, did they not read Bottom Feeder? I thought that some big publisher would say, "you get it on paper girl and we will publish it" then I would have to pay $12.00 for it on Amazon, lol can't wait for Lowlife